I'm Finally Figuring Out What It's All About...I Hope...

Ok, I am going to update this MUCH more regularly. This is how my paper journals are, one entry here, another entry a few months or years later. Anyway...

Since June my life has changed dramatically! I got my "real job" at the end of July. I love it! I am a quality control chemist at a dental company. The only problem is...I work nights! I missed out on so many shows when I was in college and now I'm missing out on them because of work!

What I have figured out is this...I need to do things that make me happy. In the past couple months I have done just that and have never been happier in my life... This probably sounds selfish, but I am not doing these things in a selfish way, if that makes sense. I always skipped out on things because I was so afraid of what everyone else thought. For instance, my brother and I flew to CA for the weekend in September to see a concert and go to Disneyland for the day. It was so much fun. Everyone around me told me not to go and that it was a stupid decision. I am glad I went, I got to spend nice time with my little brother and have an absolute blast!! Just one week ago I drove to Vegas to see a concert, the same concert I went to tonight! Everyone told me I was crazy and that it wasn't worth the drive. It was worth everything, I had so much fun!
The past 2 Saturday nights have been the best two nights in my life in a very long time.

I am really enjoying my life right now, something that is a little foreign to me...but will hopefully stay for some time.

Later Came Fast...

I should be in bed right now, I have to work early. Boy is my life crazy right now. Since graduating from college 6 weeks ago, things have not been as I expected. Had an interview with a great job, waiting to hear back, put my resume in a couple places, didn't hear back at all. I am still working at the job I started when I was 14, almost 12 years ago. I just came home from a fabulous vacation with my family. Now I really need to start looking for my "real job", the one I went to school for many years for.

I am still having a hard time growing up. I am about a week shy of 26 and still feel like I have accomplished nothing in my life. In reality I have though, and I know it. I got my bachelor's degree, double majoring in chemistry and criminalistics. I worked all those years through college too.

I may not be married and have kids, but I have had tons of fun being single. I have gone on quick impulsive trips to Vegas and Yellowstone, I get to go to concerts/shows a lot (school made me miss a TON), and I do what I want, when I want.

Now I really need to begin growing up and I am not sure I am ready for it. I don't even know if I want to get married and have kids, I don't know if I want to be a chemist for the rest of my life. I just feel as if my world is spinning and I can't get it to calm down.

I have hope that this blog will let me release my feelings such as those and make me feel better. Thank you friend for encouraging me to take on this challenge. I will be better for it.

First Entry...

I am starting a blog as a challenge from the singer of a rock band. Crazy sounding? Well...not to me. I needed a hefty push to begin a journal and I got it. I am thankful for the encouragement. I will write more later...as for now, this is a start.